sheesh, i gotta say that i need to work on remembering my past. ive forgotten so much of it that when my sisters tell me things ive done, i dont believe them. i guess i could blame it all on stress or meds, but i wish it wasnt that and something more like i just suck. but lets face it, i dont suck and never will coz i know i wont. i love my friends and love what they have to teach me and show me.

at least now im not in such a personal rut and im able to pour more energy towards friends and family and i happy that the people who matter most to me are still there for me, just like they were when i first met them.

as for blogging, just that word makes me feel old. but i promise to get better at it just as im getting better at writing down my thoughts in a book. yes, i said writing. next writing task will be to write a letter to my friend Ati in indonesia.

okays laters gators